i can't remember if i posted about how the lord has  blessed me with numerous things. first off getting that huge chunk of change back and getting all of my schooling paid and taken care of. i have money to buy food and pay rent. paying tithing is a  blessing. i have been blessed more since i got set apart to my calling as an fhe coordinator. i love it so much its such a wonderful chance for me to come out of my shell and get to plan all these fun things for my fellow students. i love it dearly. i have been blessed with patient teachers that are willing to work with me and help me understand the concept. i just need to be willing to put in the time they are and give back. i am working a little better on balancing my time and using it wisely. but sometimes i get so caught up in what im doing i forget to get much done. but i am so close to being done and the weeks go by so quickly that i can't afford to slack off any. i have so many fun thigns i wanna do before i go home, i really shoudn't have planned my ticket so far ahead but alas all should be fine. im so blessed to be able to work at the culture event and be near the prophet. ive never had this kinda of experience and im super excited, but i dont think ive really done a whole lot to prepare and im ashmed. i sometimes get so lost in being a failure i can't pull my self out to get things done.

wow so my roommate who never cleans anything just asked me to clean something becasue our kitchen is a mess. really you think so, thats why i find cockroaches in there every night. good to know, i just thought this is how it came. hmm yeah who is the one that when i first moved in here i started cleaning out the cupboards late at night when i couldn't sleep. who is the only person to sweep that floor and clean it. who is the only one who ever wipes the counters or bleaches the sink.....not her. man that really annoys me. dude i clean the whole house all the time. since i have lived here i have only seen here do dished maybe 4 times ever. man. lame she should really take some of her own adivice and clean up after her self. try cleaning the couches, sweeping the floor scrubbing the shower. please be my guest

so this week has been a trying and difficult one. i come to class on wed being a little flustered for not getting my video done on time. at the very end of class to hear that some student died. at first i was like what and for some reason it caught my attention and i wanted to know who it was to only find out it was my dear Gana. she had been sick and in the hospital for a couple of weeks and went into cardiac arrest and couldn't come out of it. she passed away tuesday night. oh my goodness i have a full week and no time to mourn the loss of a friend what am i gonna do. so i slept through a few of my classes slugged my way to the rest and tried to complete spanish all the time trying not to cry or be stuck alone for too long. it was a drastic week and i lost complete control and so i started pigging out and going out of control with what i eat and im just not that happy about this week. im so glad for a clean slate, a new month a new week and a new chance to start over. i can do my spanish and get my tutor sessions in. my gosh im falling so far behind. and i just need Gods help he is the only way ill be able to pull through. ugh