dad

i feel terriable i never remember anyones birthdays anymore. i was talking to whitney when she reminded me that today was days birthday i called him up and he just soudned so extcited to have his kid call. sometimes i just feel like im  a disappointment becasue im doing waht i want and not what they want. i want to travel the world and be righ tin the middle of the danger or problems i wanna help epople get out of them. i want to learn to love all people. but dad is always reliastic and worried about safety and reality. he said that im dreaming which means im attemtping to do something which is good. he quit dreaming when he got stuck with his teachign job and was saying how next yuear he would do it all agian. summer comes nad goes and so does the year. he just doen'st sound like he has much to cara bout these days. he was so excited when he got his calling nad mom could care less jsut saying its happened before, shes doesn't even seem to care. i just don't feel like i have stabble parents to turn to