my thoughts on birthdays

while i have not been a big fan of my birthdays these part few years, i love to celebrate other peoples. i think its so fun and exciting. what some people do for birthdays. its always interesting to see what young adults or kids will do for their birthdays away from home and if they ever tell anyone about it. i personal don't mention it a whole lot, but i know i am a little upset when i miss someone Else's because they never said a word.  Even if all i can offer is a simple hand made card or a birthday wish. i love to make cakes and attend party's for other people in their honor, on their special day. i think i have it glued in my mind that everyone deserves a surprise birthday party, it could be that child hood memory of wanting to throw one for a friend or being told that i would get one. or it could be the fact that in high school i wanted to throw one for a boyfriend but i didn't feel comfortable doing and in turn did it for a good friend. well the boyfriend was cruel and did not approve of this and let me know it. he told me i couldn't have it at my house so we did it else where, and guess what he wasn't invited. i have no idea why anyone thinks i need permission to do what pleases me. how silly. well whatever it is i find my self preparing for a party this Friday. i am very excited and hope all plans for his party fall through. not to say crash but fall into place and that he has no clue. if for no other reason in the world do i have the need for money its now, i wish i could buy a huge pinate or rent a boat or something cool and amazing but i can't so instead i will use my crazy imagination and make something from scratch.