should i

its rather a silly thought, but truth be told i feel a little left out when i ask one of my friends to do something but she already has plans and then i find out one of my other friends got to go with them and i didn't. should  i feel weird or upset, no its silly and childish. its so odd how certain ppl myself included will react to circumstances we are not really prepared for. its just not something that i would like tot think, that while im trying to include new people to have fun and have a great time are going around having one without me, and not inviting me. i sometimes feel that i am too much for people to even want to be friends with me. which in truth is just poor judgment on my part of my actions. i need to make a vow to do what i say and say what i do and then act upon it. the last thing anyone wants is someone doubting their word, when indeed i can keep secrets and will always come through if needed. i hate making promises that i am unsure if i can keep. God keeps his word so why can't i try and be more like him. the most important thing anyone can remember is to stay in context. if the subject that is  a little iffy to the other person is not brought up by them don't bring it up. big mistake i think just because it has been mentioned once its far game when this is not so. i need to learn to keep things in the right situation and know no two people really think a like.