thoughts

too mas, there is too much greed and waste in the world for me today. i was thinking the other day about when i pass on am i going to be able to let go of my earthly things and be prepared for the world to come. i think of gramps being worried about what would become of this mechanisms. i dont wanna be held down by the weight of my money or greed. i want to fly free and go to the top. i want things that i can pass on and cherish for ever, not something that will last for a few years and then is thrown out and replaced. i just have a lot weighing on my mind and i realize i have too much, i want to give to others what they need from what i have. i want to travel and trade and be a part of something bigger than myself. i find myself getting more involved with whats happening around me and loving it, its so much fun to participate in activities and get to know my fellow students. i really like it. i think its silly that the family wants all this stuff from hawaii. why dont we just save money and they can come out and see it themselves. i fear to buy them anything because i dont feel like anyone really appreciates what i buy for them anymore.