can we

how can we come together as a human race if we fail to communicate with eachother, granite some things are better left unsaid, hate ful things and extra. but if you have a problem with someone do you not feel better to get it off your chest rather than go and tell someone else. i feel better when i talk to that person, or when i talk it over with one close friend, i try not to make my problems public but i have a big mouth. i'm working very hard at it now,and keeping things to my journal or my parents. that way it doesn't come back and hit me in the face like that golf club which i think has left my head funny shaped and swollen. i have a terrible head ache on that side of the head and well it may be because i got hit so hard. who knows. oh well. one thing i do hate is how much my house mate worries and complains about certain things, its so silly. she freaked out about our landlords coming over and checking the house not that they are going to do anything. since the house looks ok. i was just like it will be ok, it will be fine. and heaven forbid they have to walk anywhere, its so hard having to walk everywhere and they get all upset when i just walk everywhere and don't bother asking for a ride. um hmm its like its ok its not a big deal and i feel more comfortable this way. i like to walk to have time to think and be left with my thoughts. i am super excited about Latino club and being the Vice president. it will be very fun getting to do something this coming school year and being a part of a club. i like to know i belong to something that has a great deal of meaning to me. i am working on moving on and not being hurt by people and their behavior, its ok i just need to learn that sometimes i am too much, and that fact that other people are too much to me, it lets me know how other people feel. if i think its not a ok thing to say, then i should not. because when it comes out, man i feel dumb. i should not comment on my friends, friends or family its too weird, i need to work on keeping the friends i have and not being so worried about other people. its ok to reconnect with people, but dont' force it.